Another sleepless night courtesy of night sweats and the menopause, I rose early and decided a walk may clear my head. It was on this morning I stumbled across the sunrise, sure I had seen the sunrise before, but for the first time in my life, I stopped, I watched and I observed the slow yet fast rising of the sun, the view changed my view of life.
I suddenly became transfixed on the slow majestic movement of the sun from the horizon to the sky, a calmness filled the air and shiver of awakening tingled throughout my body, a sense of excitement crept over me. Then, I realised it was over, how I wished I could rewind those moments, but then I remembered – I can rewind, when the sun rises again tomorrow. I hurried home for breakfast and to reflect on the serenity I had experienced.
I rose yearly next morning and ventured down to the same spot next to the river, it was a cloudy and misty morning, very different from the blue skies of the previous day. I anxiously looked at my watch, where is she? What’s happened? It must be the clouds hiding her, I thought, so I disappointingly turned my back and began the walk home, but something inside caused me to stop and turn back, wow! There she was turning the dull grey clouds to lilac and red, creating mystical patterns in the sky, beaming illuminated rays of sun through small cracks within dark clouds.
Although the morning was cloudy it was no less beautiful than the day before, it was this morning the sun began to teach me lessons of life, to shed a little clarity over, what had become my confused life with the start of the menopause. So, what did I learn that morning?
Firstly patience, in haste to view the sunrise compounded my thoughts of the busy day ahead, I doubted the time of the sun rising, and with that doubt came unnecessary disappointment, patience is a virtue. Secondly, no matter how dull, or empty your life may be, there is always hope, light can shine through the smallest of cracks, light is hope, hope is always there, you may not be able to see it clearly but it’s there, even when you’ve given up you can always turn back. Thirdly, your actions have an impact on others, what you say or don’t say may affect someone, so what can you do today to shed a bit of sunshine?
It’s been nearly 18 months since my first encounter with the sunrise, who introduced me to hope, every day I look for something new to ponder over, I look and listen to nature around me, she’s teaching me so much. The sun has recently introduced me to her big sister Dawn, but I’ll save that encounter for another day. If someone reading this is feeling a little low, lonely, or sad, try discovering the sunrise, she always arrives, she’s never late, she never disappoints and she always shines even if clouds block your view she shines on you, let her shine brightly within you when she rises, it’s a very special time, if only for a few minutes.
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